I had to take some time out to think about everything: my recent actions, behavior and state of mind. I'm so worn out. I'm not myself anymore these days. I mean, what was I doing? I was annoying people with my tweets... I'm glad they told me, because I probably wouldn't stop. Lately I'm totally not the person I used to be. When I realized that yesterday, I broke down and it all came out of me. My life's a mess! These days can't sleep all nights because of my allergy. I keep waking up 4am and sneezing like crazy. During the day I'm confined to the four walls inside, because it's constantly raining... If it's not, then my allergy is severe again. It's really a bad period of time for me. But it's not only that. So many things happened in this short year. I left Malaysia, left my girlfriend and a whole family behind and eventually she broke up with me. My grandpa died 4 months ago and here's everything different. Hell, even a cat died, which we had for 11 years and our 40 years old willow infront of our house fell because of the heavy snow this winter. Everything's so different in a very short amount time, my whole life's flipped upside down. And how did I face these changes? With denial and with surpressing my feelings. Especially during the break up 3 weeks ago I was behaving like nothing happened. Maybe I couldn't comprehend what just happened in that moment. But I did yesterday. I realized how I love and miss her, how I wish things were different. But at the same I know I can't do anything. It's frustrating! What I've been doing this whole time is running away from my problems. I wrote tons of posts, comments and tweets, I've created another online world for myself where I could escape from my offline problems. I need to stop with that. I need to make the online world exception and the real world the norm and not the other way around. I will try to write fewer posts, comments and tweets. I will try to do more things offline. The obsessive twitterer is not the real me. That's not who I am. And especially I'm not someone who would annoy people. That's why I sincerely apologize to those who were annoyed by my tweets.I'm truly sorry. I don't know why I was so obsessed with having more hits on my blog. It's just had to peak in this nonsense and make me realize how much I've changed. I'm so glad that people told me and I'm glad I realized I had to stop after two days... What if I continued with that even longer? I would have lost my face! Well, now it's 1st of June and I have the chance for a new fresh start. I also hope my allergy will ease up and that I'll do more things outside, finish renovating, going out more and meet some people and hopefully find a job. I do wanna stress that I'm very happy that I made many new friendships through blogging and tweeting and that I hope these friendships will last and evolve. I value them highly and you all have nothing to do with this, my friends. I'll still tweet you up or comment on your blog. Maybe less excessively, but you'll know I'm for real and that I'm doing fine. I also have a lot of ideas to blog about. But a post a day should be fine, maybe sometimes more, maybe sometimes less. I won't pressure myself. I just have to find some temperance, some middle ground. Now that I spoke my mind, I feel so much better. I hope things go the way I set them now and I hope that these events that have changed my life so drastically, will be dealt with and worked out. I need to become the old Nino again, the one who was happy by default and not by trying hard to appear that way. I need a break.
Can't help but appreciate their dark MK humor, they're playing a game; they're Tweedledum, blogs like this are Tweedledee. These 'Final Destination' films follow the exact same pattern over and over ([except with different scenarios obviously] they're comedies if anything! but they do sort of suck you into the ridiculous plot [originally thought up as being an X-Files episode] and insane set pieces); this repetition ("cheat death" and death will come for you!) is probably for a specific programming purpose, with this looking like it could be the final one expect this one to be the climactic ultimate 'mind shattering' (the poster is a perfect depiction of the shattered/fractured mind symbolism I've shown many times) one.
A few other 'MK symbolic' posters from the series here (half face/split mind, in the mirror).
I recently saw Adam Resurrected and was pretty impressed with it's portrayal of how someone can be so dehumanized that they genuinely think of themselves as a dog/animal (the kid being the main example as Jeff Goldblum's character Adam isn't as dehumanized [he can still function as a human being]). I think it's a shame people don't recognize how useful the Nazi era was for the perfecting of mental/psychological manipulation/programming, history books talk about 'medical experiments' going on in the camps resulting in deaths but they always seem to portray it as simply mindless cruelty to exterminate as many people as possible and experiments done to affirm the Nazi's belief (most of it is just theatre to manipulate the masses) in the Untermensch/Ubermensch. Events like World Wars allow them to continue what they had been doing for centuries in torture chambers (remember these were built for the 'elite'/nobility in their prisons/castles); I'd be very surprised if throughout history torturers had not been documenting the physical and perceived psychological effects their torture was having on their victims up in the Tower of London and such. People forget just how brutal history is and who has been pulling it's strings; this brutality is predominantly limited only to those with the power and influence to practice it (again 'elite' torture chambers were VERY common in medieval times; I would argue that along with this, the incessant inbreeding over many centuries is part of what makes up "elite" society's sociopathic psychological makeup and their obsession with ritual/control/manipulation).
This is not a true story but there are obviously many examples of this type of thing going on throughout history (in terms of feral children, of course no one wants to think that anyone could be capable of intentionally manipulating someone, particularly an innocent child into this animalistic state but it absolutely goes on and is happening somewhere right now; dehumanization is an extremely common form of abuse and an essential mechanism for programming). Let's hope the forthcoming organized chaos does not allow something as horrific as the colossal level of dehumanization that occurred during the Nazi era to happen again (I'm not very optimistic [these things are cyclical by design, we're due another world war]).
Bird cage/feathers/masks/etc [1920's-30's Germany] Jeff Goldblum plays circus entertainer/ringmaster 'Adam Stein' using his own daughter (Ana Geoanna according to a NY Times review, I can't find any info on her at all) in the knife-throwing show (obviously quite traumatic).
Willem Dafoe shows up as the Nazi bogeyman who, being a weak-minded individual thrives on the power the Nazi leadership gives him and punishes Goldblum for embarrassing him at one of his shows (Dafoe wearing the usual Nazi skull and bones + iron cross and other Nazi insignia). He knows of his 'dog trick' (manipulate a dog through mimicry) so takes this to the ultimate dehumanizing extreme as he is a fucked-in-the-head sociopathic Nazi (of course you could always read into this movie as being propaganda).
Speaking of Hitler and dog dehumanization; there's been a spate of Hitler related shows on TV recently (in England at least) and it's been interesting to hear of his physically abused childhood (I've gone into this fact in the past) and how this contributed to his own psychological makeup (though I think Hitler was manipulated far more than the show suggests [not that he wasn't "evil" I just think a lot of manipulators and people involved in the 'death camp infrastructure' ((IBM etc)) and such got off scott-free]). Hitler: The Rise of Evil also showed this dehumanization mentality in Hitler as he treated the niece he wanted to screw like a dog (made her go round in circles and stop on command, and basically outright calling her a dog and such [she kills herself]). It's worth mentioning that film has a lot of inaccuracies though it was good on the whole (also the director was fired for comparing the climate of fear Hitler rose to power in, with the War on Terrorism; which obviously 9/11 was the Bush family Nazis' Reichstag fire/false flag operation), Israel are gonna Bomb Bomb Bomb, Bomb Bomb Iran.
The story jumps from him in the mental asylum, where his damaged self is shown as he can only 'get off' apparently when dehumanizing others (symptom of this kind of this especially twisted psychological trauma) which he does to his love interest in the institution. The dehumanized kid 'David' is shown chained and collared (and acting 100% like a dog having been dehumanized). He is played by Tudor Rapiteanu whose other role has him in a short film being used to traffick drugs (like young trafficked/mk slaves in reality [as they're not suspected by the authorities for obvious reasons]). Why So Serious?! He's been made into a 'Joker'. I haven't gone into much detail here (did not want to turn this into a long post), there's more imagery/themes worth mentioning in the film.
The colour image of Goldblum with his daughter in the film further up comes from the New York Times review, whose reviews often seem to have a suggestive MK ring to them: "With his dark whirlpool eyes and sensual clown’s mouth, Jeff Goldblum has always suggested an actor poised to reveal a thousand faces, many of them nightmarish apparitions. In “The Fly” we saw a few of them; more emerge in the Holocaust survivor drama “Adam Resurrected.” The movie’s unsettling opening image is a close-up of his character, Adam Stein, in clown makeup, rolling his left eye while keeping the right stationary. In no particular order Mr. Goldblum’s shape-shifting character is an imperious circus magician and knife thrower, a dog whisperer, a wily seducer, a raging drunk and a traumatized observer of genocide." I thought this was an interesting interview from him about having to actually eat dirt at the behest of the director Paul Schrader who was abused/traumatized as a child by his nutjob religious parents (I'm sure many can relate to that): Paul Schrader's early life was based upon strict DutchCalvinist principles and parental education. When he disobeyed his mother, she would stab his hand with a pin, asking, "You think that felt bad? Hell is like that, only every second and all over your body" [and speaking of religious/Christian programming the trailer for his Exorcist prequel displays some MK/MPD themes "Are you comfortable? How old are you? Is there someone inside of you? If I ask him to tell you will you let him answer?" then the "demon"/alter speaks]. He directed Cat People (click for detailed analysis), Patty Hearst (posted on her MK/brainwashing here) and wrote the script for Taxi Driver (+ many others, see wiki), so no prizes for guessing his involvement in MK/dehumanization!
A moment ago I read some of Lisa Ling's (凌志慧 ) tweets that said the following (regarding her sister's trial in North Korea):
Our families have decided to go public. The girls' trial starts June 4, we must get the message of diplomacy out. We'll start with the Today Show Mon morning, Larry King, Nightline Mon night. Anderson Cooper during the week as the trial begins. Please help us spread the message.
Thank you Finally. I respect the family to decide what's best to do in this situation. But eventually the media has to start talking about this sad case. Quiet diplomacy is good, but recent North Korean behavior prooves it didn't work. And poor Laura Ling and Euna Lee will be used for propaganda by the North Koreans rather than some leverage for the negotiations. Seems like they're going nuts. They're challenging the world's patience and threatening the world peace and it looks like they're preparing themselves for war. Gates' comments made me a little worried when he said it was not a crisis and no additional troups would be deployed. I hope he lied. I hope that's tactics and behind the scenes USA, Japan and South Korea have a good plan to take down the evil Kim Jong-il down, if he decides to start a war. In I really hope it won't be necessary, because millions could die and we could forget the case of Laura and Euna. Who knows what these nut-cases in North Korea are willing to do to show how ruthless they are.
The videos they keep releasing on a daily basis now are really getting over the top, this one for Lady Gaga's Paparazzi (as always thanks to the quick tipsters in comments); on a transatlantic flight over last Christmas I had the chance to listen to Lady GaGa's album on the plane's entertainment screens and Paparazzi was the song (along with other suggestive ones obviously) that stuck out most for me. Emphasizing the word 'Papa' from it "Papa-Paparazzi" shows the word's meaning and significance (the origin of the word 'Paparazzo' itself comes from Marionette Manipulator of puppet actorsFederico Fellini's [image from this post, click for more on Fellini] 1960 film 'La Dolce Vita'; the surname of the journalist in it is Paparazzo). While there is speculation over what the actual origins of the name in the film are (see the wiki link, seems very unlikely [rightly "strongly contested"]) but for me it is fairly obvious, 'papa' meaning 'daddy' in Italian (also Pope which has it's own MK implications) and 'razzo' meaning 'rocket' in Italian, which is of course a phallic shaped explosive machine that shoots off into space (dissociation), so Papa (daddy) + razzo (rocket) Paparazzo. Considering how much incest abuse factors into MK (particularly traumatic), this would make a child extremely dissociative; hence why this name has been adopted as a standard word for celebrity photographers (the link to dissociation). Their role of constantly flash-photographing the multitude of "airhead" (for a reason, most are abused from a young age and are only allowed to have that dumb public persona, it is all a mask) is part of keeping these 'celebs' dissociative, easier to control as flashing/strobe lights are well known to have this slight effect (depending on the idividual obviously). Of course humiliation and being under 'constant watch' is a huge part of the role the insane (to the outside observer), feral paparazzi plays in the global MK infrastructure. The imagery and symbolism in the video and the rest of the lyrics pretty much speak for themselves (as always, how much you take from the imagery is wholly dependent on your level of symbolic and MK/psychological awareness [I'd do a usual somewhat detailed analysis but I want to focus on some other posts these videos have been delaying]).
[may edit to better quality images]
We are the crowd We're c-coming out Got my flash on it's true Need that picture of you It's so magical We'd be so fantastico
Leather and jeans Garage glamorous Not sure what it means But this photo of us It don't have a price Ready for those flashing lights 'Cause you know that baby I
I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you until you love me Papa-paparazzi Baby there's no other superstar You know that I'll be your Papa-paparazzi
Promise I'll be kind But I won't stop until that boy is mine Baby you'll be famous Chase you down until you love me Papa-paparazzi
I'll be your girl Backstage at your show Velvet ropes and guitars Yeah cause you'll know I'm staring between the sets Eyeliner and cigarettes
Shadow is burnt Yellow dance and return My lashes are dry Purple teardrops I cry It don't have a price Loving you is cherry pie 'Cause you know that baby I
I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you until you love me Papa-paparazzi Baby there's no other superstar You know that I'll be your Papa-paparazzi
Promise I'll be kind But I won't stop until that boy is mine Baby you'll be famous Chase you down until you love me Papa-paparazzi
Real good (We dance in the studio) Snap, snap (To that shit on the radio)
Don't stop boy, let it rewind We'll blast it but we'll still have fun
I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you until you love me Papa-paparazzi Baby there's no other superstar You know that I'll be your Papa-paparazzi
Promise I'll be kind But I won't stop until that boy is mine Baby you'll be famous Chase you down until you love me Papa-paparazzi
As she tumbles down the cliff (symbolic rabbit hole [and obviously all the other allegories/mechanisms for dissociation]), dissociation is shown here clearly as the hypnotic black/white spiral is shown spinning as the falls.
Everyone knows this spiral pattern is used in hypnosis [it should always go without saying that these videos are designed to manipulate/MK the minds of the viewing masses also as well as showing GaGa's MK, particularly stepped up in recent videos ((you have to appreciate just how multifaceted all of this is))], this further shows the dissociative effects of the Paparazzi's constant flashing lights and the role they play in MK in general (the song is called 'Paparazzi' and features the hypnotic black/white spinning spiral [put two and two together and please don't make five] along with the load of other MK imagery in it [masks, bunny ears, bird cage veil, dog dehumanization, leopard print, general misogyny/exploitation of GaGa, pink hair highlight, robot themes, heart, Mickey Mouse ears, horns, one eye shots etc etc]). Here's a quote for people not quite up to scratch on what dissociation/altered states/hypnosis is:
Ernest R. Hilgard of Stanford University described hypnosis as a dissociative state [I covered the various dissociatve states in this CSI post]. The concept of dissociation—having one part of the mind "split off" and work independently from the rest—originated with Pierre Janet (Jan-AY) (1859-1947). Janet worked with multiple personality patients (see the later section on dissociative identity disorder. (Dissociative Identity Disorder is the modern name for multiple personality disorder). Multiple personality is perhaps the most spectacular example of dissociation.
How did Hilgard describe hypnosis? Why is hypnosis considered a dissociative state?
Hypnosis is much less dramatic than multiple personality, but it contains the essential ingredients of all dissociative states: a person does intelligent actions without normal conscious awareness and later has a hard time remembering it. For example, a hypnotized person can be told to feel a poke in the back when he or she hears a particular word. Later the person does not remember this suggestion, but when the special word is pronounced, the person jumps as if he or she just felt a poke in the back. Some portion of the mind or cognitive system, separated or dissociated from ordinary awareness, remembered and executed the instructions. (source)
These guys are apparently a band from Sweden, Snake of Eden (see this post for description on the Garden of Eden/original sin/serpent symbolism [snake = phallus, fruit = sex etc]). They are triplets (their appearance certainly looks MK'd) and have been in Daisy Delahoya's Daisy of Love (these types of MTV shows/music videos are always used to give their slaves some exposure).
May find out who some of these models are post on them.
Broken robot :'( The 22-year-old US singer revealed that the first time her father saw her perform, she was wearing "a leopard-thong-fringed bikini with a sequined high-waisted belt and granny panties, and it was so wrong it was amazing". [source] [above image is not Lady Gaga (she does look a little like her though in my opinion), just thought the imagery/symbolism was very pertinent here; from this, can't find much info on it]
"NeuroSonic", more on this (thanks to advertising/spambot commenter; showing how much it's being pushed [apologiez if Justin is an actual person]) extremely suspect new "drink" see their official site + blog and all the other promotional crap (all they have to do is promote it in their controlled media through their controlled celebrity slaves [i.e. Paris Hilton, Hayden Pan2, LiLo, (use search function at top for more on them) etc], and the insanely suggestible masses must have it!) I'm sure someone knows more about these than I do, I didn't even think it could be a real drink at first :|.
The fact that products like these are even allowed onto the market (an energy drink for 'Sleep' how does that make sense, and 'gasm'/sex and 'Bliss'.... what???) is highly suspect to me. "Be Smart. Drink Neuro." [standard psychological manipulation used in corporate advertising] Obviously the smart thing to do is to avoid it like the plague! (the video pretty much tells you it's poison anyway!)
"The scene also features a shot of the lilac tea cup that Lady GaGa drank from while on the Jonathan Ross show. She later reportedly flew into a tantrum when it went missing." [from Daily Mail; the teacup is part of her programming, thanks to a commenter in this post for pointing out this in 'The Three Faces of Eve' (remember 'Snake of Eden' in the video also suggests Eve) where her alter throws a tantrum demanding her china teacup! (gives the traumatized alter the illusion of comfort, sort of like a strange version of child's teddy bear/blanket; not shown in the below trailer but you can read it in the script here)]
The director of this video, 'Jonas Akerland' has also created many other MK videos such as Pink's Sober (that feminist masterpiece 'Smack My Bitch Up' is probably his most famous) and has worked a lot with Madonna (Ray of Light video and 'I'm going to tell you a secret' documentary). His first feature film is very telling as it's called 'Spun' (spinning/spun/disorientation/spin programming) and is about essentially a bunch of MK'd actors on methamphetamine, 'spun' is the slang used for a long stint on the drug (drugs like that [speed/meth/etc], while not being particularly dissociative; are useful in MK because of their extremely addictive properties [all about controlling/manipulating their mental states; a few days on a stimulant like speed, then suddenly switch them to wildly dissociative/hallucinatory drugs, i.e LSD]. In general, people on drugs are more suggestible and easier to ; Lady GaGa has told of her history of drug use [cocaine, but I'm sure like many addicts she also did meth and others; I don't believe that fairytale she tells about her father helping her stop drugs in the link for a second]).
His latest film looks interesting 'The Horsemen' [ready for some self-fulfilling prophesies to play out over the next few years? (the nuts in charge have had all this shit set up leading to 2012 for many years ((Pakistan, Iran, North Korea, Israel etc are all part of this future organized chaos)); I personally don't feel we're too far from the kind of dystopian future we've been shown in various works of fiction ((Bladerunner, Metropia below etc)))].
Regarding the actor playing Lady GaGa's handler ["papa"/"daddy" in the lyrics] who throws her off the edge (who most of the lyrics are directed at) is Alexander Skarsgard (product of an acting family; I've seen him in Generation Kill as Brad "Iceman" Colbert, he's probably more well known for his role in True Blood as a vampire who owns a nightclub called 'Fangtasia', he was also in Zoolander as a male model 'Meekus'). He is the guy inside the head (so symbolic manipulator/programmer) in the above MK symbolic poster for 'Metropia'. "Metropia is taking place in a not-so-distant, terrifying Europe. The world is running out of oil and the net of undergrounds has been connected, creating a gigantic subway web underneath Europe. Roger from Farsta (a suburb of Stockholm) tries to stay away from the underground. He thinks its unpleasant and he sometimes hear strange voices in is head. One day Roger finds out that his life is controlled in every detail. He tries to break free. To succeed he needs super-model Nina to help him [Juliette Lewis]. Or is it maybe Nina who needs Roger?" At least some things always remain a constant even in our dystopian future, Hello Kitty! (seems to be lots of cats at the start of the trailer in the guy's bedroom too).
